My Beloved spoke and said unto me: "Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away" Song of Solomon 2:10

Here are a few additional things that I read in Chpt. 4, I pray it ministers to you all.

Read below as the author, Leslie Ludy, uses her marriage as a analogy to what our commitment with Christ should be like. Here is what she said:

"When I married Eric, I took his name. I became Mrs. Eric Ludy. I took on Eric's name to solidify my marriage covenant with Him. It wasn't just accepting the title "Mrs. Eric Ludy" - it was totally a change of focus and lifestyle.

What would be the point of taking on the name Ludy if I didn't change my life after the wedding? What if, after the vows were spoken, I went back to my own house, slept in my own bed, and went about my daily life as if I were still single? Bearing Eric's name meant building my life around my new name.

To truly bear the name of my husband - not just in title, but in my daily reality- I had to leave my own life behind and join my groom in my new life. I had to become one with him."

Did you get what she was saying? If not, let me adjust a few words and maybe it will help.

"When you became a Christian, you took Christ's name. You became His daughter. You took on Christ's name to solidify your eternal covenant with Him. It wasn't just accepting the title "Christian" - it was totally a change of focus and lifestyle.

What would be the point of taking on the name Christian if you didn't change your life after accepting Him as your Savior? What if, after the vows were spoken, you went back to your own sins, continued to live against His commandments, and went about your daily life as if you were still of the world? Bearing Christ's name meant building your life around your new name.

To truly bear the name of our Savior - not just in title, but in your daily reality- you haveto leave your own life behind and join your Bridegroom in your new life. You have to become one with him."

When viewed from this perspective, it made perfect sense. If I had chosen to bare Christ's name, if I had chosen to accept Him as my Savior, my Comforter and King.. it would only make sense to leave my old sinful ways behind for better days with Him. We can not only devote part of our lives to the Lord, rather it must be all parts of our lives. We wouldn't part ways with our husband and go back to living as a single woman, so how is it that we somehow convince ourselves that we can return to our sinful lives while still loving Christ? It would be like having a affair while still completely in love and happy with our husband. It is not possible.

Sisters, I truly challenge you to live above what the world considers "norm", we are called to be set apart for Christ. Whether it be in the way we dress, the music we listen to, the way we speak, the way we choose to socialize, our reactions to others or our personal relationship with the Lord, let us keep one key thing in mind: do any and everything to honor and glorify His name. After all, it is the one we have chosen.

"To become a true Christian- one who bears the names of Jesus our beloved Bridegroom- we must leave behind our own lives and come away with Him. We must put aside all of our own selfish desires and pursuits. He must become the sole focus and worship of our lives. As it says in Psalm 45:10-11, "Listen, O daughter. Consider and incline your ear. Forget your own people also, and your father's house; so the King will greatly desire your beauty. Because He is your Lord, worship Him."

Our precious Bridegroom is calling us, beckoning us to leave all behind and come away with Him.

He is faithful..

In the past few weeks many changes have taken place and this past Saturday I found myself in tears, crying out to the Lord. I came to the end of my ropes and, as strong as I perceive to be, I could not hold on any longer. Somehow, some way, in the midst of all this chaos, I took my eyes off of the Maker of all things and led myself to believe that it came down to me to fix things, to make something happen. I was alone in my apartment, crying out to the Lord. There were questions of what His plans were in the upcoming months. I didn't know what my next step was. I asked God "where?", "when?" and "how?". He responded with a soft whisper "wait and trust Me". I pouted and cried like a 5 year old. :\

Woe to me.

The the Comforter, along with encouraging brothers and sisters, reminded me of Philippians 1:6 which says "being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."

I had forgotten that the Lord had His hand upon me, that he was guiding me through every single step. I had to pick myself up and bounce back into reality, back into His promises. Not only is my King loving but He is faithful. I realized that even when I find myself on my knees crying and questioning His ways, He never forsakes me and He holds me in His hands. He knows the limits to my strengths and weaknesses. And above all of that, His plans for me are greater than mine.

Though I had given Him my all, I was still left in a position of not knowing what my next steps were and there was no reason to be careless and irresponsible. So, I called my management when I arrived home from work today. I wanted to speak to them about the terms and conditions of my lease, to prepare myself as I was terminating my contract.

What a moment of relief!

You see, I moved into this apartment 5 months ago. And with a 12 month contract, the terms of my contract states IF I violated the lease, my penalty would be $2,000 AND the responsibility of paying the rent until the end of my agreed 12 month term (unless a new/replacement tenant took over the payment). This was VERY heavy on my shoulders as I live by myself and off of my own earned income.

HOWEVER, are you ready for the GOOD news? PTL, that as of 2 months ago CBU (Calvary Baptist University, the college neighboring my apartment complex) purchased our property. I had no idea what this meant for me until my property manager explained that CBU's plans for our community was to change it from public housing to school housing. What does that mean? Well since CBU had purchased the property, they had made plans to renovate and change alot of things over. One of these changes was that they had WAIVED EARLY LEASE TERMINATION FEES. Can you belieeeeeeeeeeeve that? Because CBU purchased our property, they waived the penalty fee of terminating my lease early, which saved meTHOUSANDS of dollars. I HAD to have the property manager repeat herself a few times.

The Lord not only gave me peace in waiting and trusting His ways but He delivered me from a troubling debt that was massively weighing me down.

With that being said, my dear California family, I wanted to inform you all that I have given my management my 30 day notice. My move out date has been set on March 12, 2011. I am excited to see the great things that God will reveal to me in the journey that lies ahead, but at the same time I am sadden that our time together will end shortly. I am terrible at farewells and because I have built so many great relationships here, I know the next few weeks will be a emotional roller coaster. But I am grateful for the opportunity that God had blessed me with to have known such great individuals. I will definitely keep in touch with you and I pray that I will see you all again one day, if not here then in His kingdom.

This is a amazing story that I wanted to share, to encourage you all that its true: "sometimes God takes us out of our storms while during other times He rides along through them". Its obvious that God had placed all of these things in my path since the day I moved here. He knew what hardships I would face and He prepared a way out. PTL forever and ever. Continue to live for Him, and through your trails CLING onto Him. He will never let go, so hold on as much as you can!

I love you all and thank you to my King and to you and your prayers.

Psalm 92:4 For you make me glad by your deeds, O LORD; I sing for joy at the works of your hands

Credits: http://www.heartlight.org, http://littlechirps.blogspot.com

{ giving thanks }

Lord, thank you for everything. For my loving family, caring friends, my job, Harvest, Layla and most of all for your son. For the sacrifice that you've made that has granted us direct access to you. For calling this wretched daughter home. I was once blind but now I see, once lost but now am found. I can honestly say, looking back, you had your hand on every single part of my life. From my lowest point to my "high". I can still remember those lonely broken nights; the feeling of failure, disappointment, emptiness and helplessness. You reached your hand from heaven and you touched my heart. You wiped the tears my from very eyes and held me close to you, reminding me that you are my ultimate love and that only through you would I be healed and restored. I am forever grateful and though I know I can never thank you enough, I live my life as a offering to you. I can truly say with all my heart that you are my redeeming and unfailing love. Your love has truly captivated me. It it only through you that I find my happiness becuase only through you can I truly understand, accept and love myself. I pray that you continue to show me your face, continue to light my path and place those individuals in my life that will draw me closer and closer to being the person you desire me to be. <3

Yesterday marked the second year I made my own turkey :) (whoo-hoo!) Though it wasn't as flavorful and moist as the one last year, I am satisfied with it. It was still better than most of the ones I've had before! (teeheehee). Auntie Tray came in from LA and made her all time delish eggrolls and later Auntie Hlee and Uncle Bee came over to join us for the feast. What was on the menu? Veggie Penne with Alfredo sauce, Scalloped potatoes, Green beans & carrots with sliced almonds, salad, Lemongrass & Lemon based turkey, white Jasmin rice, corn, eggrolls, piggies in a blanket ;) (hehe) and peanut based hot sauce. Absolutely yumms! The dessert was banana cream pie and velvet cake with cream cheese frosting.

On another note! This Thanksgiving week was surely a BAD week to start my diet! ARGH! Tuesday I did a 6 miles cardio workout just to come to work on Tuesday and stuff my face at our Thanksgiving luncheon. *Aye! I didn't workout Wednesday nor did I work out Thursday. BUT tonight shall be a night of redemption! I am attacking the gym in hopes that I can shed a few lbs before going home for Christmas to face my 104 lb little brat sister. :\ Let's hope it works out as planned, hahaha. I have about 14days until my departure date so if I'm faithful to my eating and exercise.. I should be a little OK. (too much wishful thinking?)

{ getting my butt kicked }

So a few weeks ago I purchased Jillian Michael's 30 day Shred workout DVD and yesterday was the first time I was able to get my lazy butt up to go to battle with this flab-bolous body of mine. The DVD consists of strength training along with cardio in a 20 minute workout. I admit, this work out was a killer! I've done at home work out videos before but yesterday's workout definitely got me using muscles that I have not used in a long time! During the work out, you really felt my muscles being used as there is low intensity weight lifting. :) For me it was more than enough! teehee

I'm going to make it a goal to incorporate this workout into my weekly workout schedule as I am aiming to "shed" some weight by October :\ of course that along with more intense cardio and better eating habits. I'm bad at commitment but I will try my best to journal any goals I reach. :)

On another note, my nieces and sister are coming to visit this Wednesday! Whoo-hoo! I'm so excited! My nieces have never been to SoCal & I haven't seen my sister in sometime so I'm uber-EXCITED and look forward to their trip! (This is actually one of the reasons why I bought my workout DVD in the first place haha, but back to the blogging) So far we have beaches, sailing, shopping, hiking and site seeing in our itinerary :) Come back again for photos!

Tomorrow we are throwing a surprise birthday for our manager. The theme? "Revenge of the Nerds". Word on the block is that this is his all time fav movie, and since it is fun and inexpensive we all figured it was a go. I made signs & our sorority patches. I'll be shopping for my plaid shirt, camel-toe pants, suspenders and pocket protector today :) ! Salvation Army here I come! We've all agreed to come in full gear. Funny thing is we may have a surprise visit from corporate and sales reps in our other offices. HA! That'll be funny to see huh? Will be posting photos from that as well.

As for my apartment I am slowly (but surely) putting it all together. I was able to finally find the screws to mount my TV onto the stand so now I can enjoy my HGTV without the sofa arm getting in the way ;) Along with that I have cleared of most of the junk in my living room (leaving only the wall decor) and assembled my desk. I'm proud to say my living space is ALOT more functional now *yay! Well folks, thank you for tuning into my oh-so-entertaining weekend recap ;) have a great week and God bless!

{ love & serenity }

Last week I had the Mr. come visit. :) It was quite a great visit. He's so helpful and patient with me, Lord bless him. Walked Layla for me, cooked a GREAT steak dinner, did my dishes everyday and helped me move to my new apartment. He's soooo patient with me, seriously I drive MYSELF bonkers sometimes ;) I don't know how he puts up with me, but he does.. and I'm in love with that.

My move was a great test for us. It started off a bit frustrating. I don't like packing nor do I enjoy unpacking.. or moving. hahaha but Peter Parker made it easy with keeping me busy with carrying pillows and blankets as he carried the heavier boxes. What can I say? He loves me. And, on top of that, he let me rest while he continued and unpacked my clothes. What a sweetie huh girls? haha, there was one time where he almost rammed me into a closet door knob, while carrying up the sofa (you can tell I left the weight on his end) but I paid him a favor back when we carried in the bed mattress and he was pushed all the way to the bedroom. hahahaha, good times. It turned out to be full of laughs and faster than I expected.

We decided to take Layal, so she would get use to the apt. At first it was fun adn cute, she kept running in and out of the apartment but her curousity kept driving her further and further from the apartment (take in mind, she was off-leash) so we decided to leave her in the bathroom. BAD CHOICE!!! Not only did she whine and bark but mama came back to find her knawing the door frame. Let's just say, that was NOT something I wanted to report on my inspection list. The last thing I want to do is bring attention to it. *Sigh. It was clearly my fault though, poor girl probably thought I abandoned her. And besides, I left nothing around of mine for comfort.

So tomorrow marks one entire week since the move. It's quite serene and peaceful. My previous apartment was more busy and a little tighter. I look forward to what God holds in my future there. This week? Painting walls, dyeing furnture and decorating! Whoo-hoo!

{ back to the roots }

It's been a while huh?

So, whats new? Not too much, been trying to enjoy the hot temperatures here in Southern California! Aye, sometimes the numbers are so high I can bare staying outside. This weekend I will be running around town looking at apartments then off to Vegas for a 1 day vacay ;)

I'll be moving (yes, again) as my current lease will be ending later this month. A bit exciting and stressful at the sametime. I am going to be living by myself (finally) so this should be interesting. So far I've narrowed my choices down to 2. Pretty soaces, running 800-850 square ft and closer to church. Same city that I currently live in. One I viewed this past Saturday & the other I will be viewing this Saturday. They are only a few blocks from one another. Here's what it boils down to: floor plan, pet rent and stove range. 800 square ft is ALOT to work with being just one person, but not if the floor plan is not functional and does not flow. One of the apartments has a standard $35/month pet rent fee that I do not like, and one has none. Lastly I do not like electric stoves, not only in the way they work but gas ranges are less expensive, so that will also be something I will have to factor in. I'll keep you all posted on what happens :)

Moving on...! I haven't doen too much crafting lately. Over the weekend I've decided I wanted to tackle in a new project. ~`~`~`~`~~`~~~ drum rolls please!!! `~`~`~``~``~~`~`~```~`~~`~`` hmong clothes for Layla!

It's really hard to ignore these urges in me ;) She's my #1 model and I was inspired after seeing Tray's hmong peices this weekend. I've done a little bit of stiching before so this should be interesting :) Heres a few photos that I am holding onto to inspire me, ALSO I came a adorable Hmong inspired outfit out together on polyvore by hovercraft. I absolutely LOVE it! Too bad the garmets are a bit dated and out of stock. Pay a visit and view her other cute outifts she's styled. Have a blessed day family!

Isaiah 40:30-31
"Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."

{ love is in the Michigan air }

So, as I stated in my prior blog, I went home again this past weekend to celebrate the union of two beautiful couples: Aong Vang & Cheng Thao and KouKhasha Kue & Tom Lee. Man oh man was it a busy weekend! Sooooo restless and hot! It was like a sticky, hot, tiresome dream! ;) hehe

Really though, it went by so quickly I feel like it was a dream. I got to see alot of old faces, Minnesota, Oaklahoma & Wisconsin faces :) My bff Ntxoo and her little family, Meng and the boys, Nancy and her family and ofcourse those beautiful Michiganders! Sigh, I was was so jet lagged when I first arrived I forgot all the people who I would be seeing.

Saturday was Aong & Cheng's wedding. It was so intimate and adorable! And I'm so surprise to have found out that Cheng is actually the son of my parents' former pastor, 5 terms ago? Earlier that day I went to visit the new (to me its new) outdoor shopping center: Partidge Creek. It was so lovely! Was a little like a cross in between Victoria Gardens and The Grove. They had all the major store I liked; H&M, Forever21, Aldos, Guess? Apple AND For Love (whoo-hoo!). I also came across a store called Love Culture. Pretty cute things in there, a bit overwhelming because there was soooo much stuff in there, but prices were good. I guess a store to compare it to would be Papaya? One thing I was SOO shocked and in love with was that they allow pets! Not only in the shopping center but in the stores AND they have a little doggie play area :) Lovely isn't it?

Sunday was Kayla (KouKhasha) & Tom's wedding. It was a HOT day! Argh! I was running late and sweating. Got lost for over an hour due to the beautiful Michigan construction, stuck in a car with no A/C and missed rehearsal! I had no time for make-up and I saw graphic/sad scene of a groundhog in a roadkill. :( It really made my day sad. Afterwards I was on a hunt for shoes at Somerset mall. Argh, dropped $80 on some Mary Janes that I didn't even love and didn't get to see my baby ALL WEEKEND. Poor baby, was so happy and crying like a maniac when I got home that night. All in all, weekend was fun-filled and full of surprises. :)

Anywho, here are photos from Kayla & Tom's wedding, enjoy! I have yet uploaded the photos from Aong & Cheng's wedding. I didn't have my camera on me much so these photos are brought to you from the hands of Pang and Sheng, thanks guys! Have a blessed weekend family!

{ small projects }

I've recently picked up on DIY acrylic nails. A few of my coworkers were talking about manicures and pedicures and I figured, "why not do it yourself". This was my first attempt and though I pretty impressed with how easy the application was, I'm a bit discouraged as they are started to lift after just after 7 days! :(

I purchased the Kiss acrylic nail kit from Target for only a few dollars, I believe it was $7.99? And the nail art supplies I hunted down at a local swap meet. They were pretty inexpensive as well. The polishes were $1.00 each, gems was $2.00 for a pack of 6 and confetti was $2.50 for a pack of 12. So grand total averaging $18.50 for a whole set? :) Nice, huh? I could just fill them as I like but I have already taken them off and will start a new set. .. hehe. Only down fall: time consuming! I had to file those suckers to the thickness that I wanted and getting into those little crevices were a little painful due to the inexperience and tight sqeezes! Definitely adding a nail drill to my wish list how ;)

Also, a photo of the mask made for my friends Bday masquerade, *blah. I'm only posting it for the simple fact that I attempted. This was my first attempt to make a mask. When I purchased it, it was yellow, purple.. very marde gras ;) I only had an hour to put re-design it so, I didn't have enough time to make it as ornate and detailed as I initially planned to. I'm a bit disappointed, but I'm satisfied with how the overall design and color. :)

{ new project }

Man I've been so MIA, I'm sorry folks! But I wanted to quickly update you on what been going on. :)

I've been traveling a lot. Well, I guess not really "travelling" per say, but keeping myself busy around town ;) About two weeks ago I was in LA for the whole weekend. My roomy recently got married and that was technically the first weekend her and her hubby had alone as "newlyweds". We've agreed on him moving in to make things more convenient for them both. Since I was unable to attend their wedding, I set-up a romantic candle-lit night for them. I bought chocolate, roses and apparel for them and left for the weekend with my baby Layla. :) That weekend we had our hands full! Went to flower and fabric district, mountain hiking, Hollywood Farmer's Market, doggie beach and met up with Mary for a good dinner ;) I was also able to attend "Iglesias" with Tray. What a wonderful church! Great teacher, awesome worship and a message that was focused solid on the word. Amen!

This past weekend I attended a Bday masquerade ball and an announcement dinner. Was a bit busy running around and getting the things we needed as I was helping my friend with the decor for her dinner. It was simple and sweet! :) Attended my first swap meet here in SoCal and purchased some lovely peonies! I LOVE PEONIES! Fortunately found the little things we needed last minute, PTL! And the dinner worked out perfectly!

I'm leaving out of this weekend for my friend's wedding, back to Michigan. Yes, Michigan, AGAIN. These trips are really putting whole in my wallet! Eek! This time I'm taking my baby too because her sitter is also leaving out of town. My flight, with Spirit Airlines, is scheduled to leave Friday evening but with the strike that’s going on it’s not certain. Err.., so far they haven't been flying. This would be day 6 and flights are cancelled up to Thursday. Thursday! That’s the day before I'm scheduled to depart! So who knows if the strike will be over by then :(

Well, this blog is going to be short as I am still at work and short on time but, wanted to let you all know what my next project was! Fabric flower necklace! It’s chic, ornate, and inexpensive and I can customize it to whichever way I like! Here are a few photos of what I've saved to inspire me. Colors, fabric type, and arrangement! Ta-ta lovlies, always remember after a storm there is always a rainbow! :)

{ love one another, as I have loved you }

2 Chronicles 7:14 "If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."

This weekend I will be travelling back to Michigan :) Going back to attend a benifit concert to assist tribal people in Asia.

If you have a heart of compassion, a hunger for the God's word or a need for revival I encourage you to attend! There will be a love offereing and food for sale so definotely DO NOT forget the cash!

:) Remember family, it all starts with us. Expect God to move in incredible ways and in many hearts! There will be amazing worship, discipleship and fellowship! I'll see you there family!

{ happy }

My sister is moving here soon, yay! All the way to SoCal from Minnesota! She's a bit excited then also sad knowing she'll be further away from the nest in Michigan. I'm currently looking into school again, I've applied and I'm really praying that the Lord can open the doors for me to attend school FT and work PT. Lord that would be a blessing! But, if not, His will and not mine.

My sister and I recently we got in a heated "text-gument" (text argument). Ever had those? There actually not too bad, alot better than verbal arguments because you think and read what you say before you deliver it (sometthing we all should do anyways but forget to do in the heat of the moment, hehe). But you better make sure your fingers are typing the right things and checking for grammar errors or else when you throw yourself under the bus. Saying things like "U are so unreliable!" can actually turn out to be "I are so unreliable!" hehe.. that actually may be a good thing, can end the argument quick! haha!

All in all, we didn't really talk things out but the next day she text me the info I asked her to (that she said she wouldn't) we're all good now. I miss her alot and ofcourse, I forgive her. IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I FORGIVE YOU! Because I know you're too stubburn to ask for it! hahaha, ok jk jk jk! But yay! I'm excited! I wove my wittle bossy, workaholic, over-tanned, over acheiver little sister. She makes me laugh until I pee. haha thats pretty serious. ;) will keep you updated on how it goes! have a good weekend!

o btw, tomorrow is my bday! yay! I turn 23! ;)

Thank you Lord for the great blessings you have poured into my life. The blessings as well as the trails. They have molded me to be stronger and wiser to further your kingdom. As I look back on my life I see the many things you have shown me. I can recall the times where I felt so alone and abandoned but you were so faithful, you reminded me that you never forsake me but that it was I who forsaked you. I pray that you continue to give me your eyes, to see the amazing things you have fo me; the hands, to do a servant's work; and your heart, of compassion and love. I know I can never give you anything that is remotely close to what you have given me, but I pray that my offering to you may be pleasant. I love you.

{ i love to cuddle }

 

so does Layla :)

{ chapter #2 }

Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

"Where there is love, there is God also." - Leo Tolstoy

A Love Letter From Abba

"True love combines compassion and sacrifice. It prevails with forgiveness because it knows no selfishness." -Source Unknown

During the past few days I've been under mad reconstruction. God is stirring up something great in me and I'm excited to see the results. I don't remember the last time He’s stripped me down to my core like this. To be completely emptied of myself and refilled with him, it’s so refreshing.

I was humiliated, humbled and now and working my hardest to be meek. Lord work in me as I set my eyes on you. May I not lose focus and steer off on my own desires but may I have a heart that seeks for your desires.

This video is amazingly beautiful. The narrator, photos, videos, music, scripture used.. the entire composure of this video is beautiful.

I strongly encourage you to watch and read this in solitude. I pray it ministers to your heart. This is not a man written letter, yet a letter composed with scriptural doctrine; solid promises and words. Enjoy family, may His face shine upon you. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKmdIdQg3Ks&feature=youtube_gdata

My Child…

You may not know me, but I know everything about you

Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up

Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways

Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered

Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image

Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being

Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring

Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived
Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation
Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book
Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live
Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made
Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb

Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born

Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me

John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love

1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you
…1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father
1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could
Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father
Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand
James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs
Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope
Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love
Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore
Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing
Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you
Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession
Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul
Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things
Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me
Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart
Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires
Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine
Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles
2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you
Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart
Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes
Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth
Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus
John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed
John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being
Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you
Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you
1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love
Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me
1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again
Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen

Luke 15:7

I have always been Father, and will always be Father

Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…Will you be my child?

John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you

Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad. Almighty God

{ a cup of love }

I would have never thought that it would happen to me. What a sudden surprise it was to me. I've always thought to myself "thats not my type, no thank you. I'll pass." But during my last therapy session we cross paths and I've thought about you constantly since then. I've fallen in love.

You, are something special. With every sip, you take me to a place of solitude in a crowded room. Your aromic scent brings my mind to peace and sets my body at ease. My, oh my, how I am so blessed to have you in my life. ;)

P.S. I enjoyed our date today at my desk. You whispered sweet words of nothing that fluttered beautifully in my ears.

Remember the tea kettle; it is always up to its neck in hot water, yet it still sings! -Author Unknown

{ shabby chic french romance }

I’ve always been fond of the Renaissance Era. When I was in college, my class I enjoyed the most was Art History. I actually took it for 2 semesters. I LOVED studying and learning the different types of mediums, settings and elements of the designs/artworks. It was really the only class I would study day and night for.

Anywho, I’ve fallen in love all over again. I cannot seem to take myself away from the French Renaissance style and design, especially the Rococo. The opulent architecture, ornate furniture, whimsical tapestry and beautiful muted colors are absolutely the ingredients to fulfill the romantic girly voice within me. Here are a few of my favs.

Credits: Rachel Ashwell, Not Too Shabby, Layla Grayce, Rachel Ashwell, Simply Shabby Chic @ Target

{ good Friday }

Going home to surprise family this weekend! At work right now and will be leaving by noon as my flight is scheduled to depart by 530pm. Want to know a secret? I haven't packed yet. :/

This weekend's visit will also be a celebration of mom and dad's birthdays. So it will be filled with food, candy and laughter! I'm excited as its been 2 years since our big Easter egg hunt for the kids and about the same since we last celebrated our parents' birthdays.

Yesterday I got my hair did. ;) My awesome co-worker gave me a cut and highlights and it look sabsolutely fan-tab-bu-lous! I'm so blessed to have a friend who takes time out of her busy life to make me look better. ;) haha. I was too "bland" and wanted change and am VERY happy that I have a friend who I can trust and not just a random stranger. haha.

Apart from an Egg hunt weekend with the kids and parents birthday, this weekend will also be a celebration of freedom. Freedom from sins, freedom from bondages, freedom the enemies hands. Have you ever heard of this love story? A man gave his life in exchange to your salvation.

He was beaten brutally and lead as a lamb to the slaughter house. The bible records that He knew what was going to happen to him the night the Romans arrested Jesus, he prayed and asked his disciples to pray with him. Jesus was in such agony that night, he literally sweat drops of blood (scientists have said that if you are under extreme pressure, it is possible to sweat blood). He knew what was going to happen to him and how much he was going to suffer in the next few hours. He knew that the Roman soldiers were going to arrest and beat him. He knew they were going to spit on his face and pull the hairs from his beard. Jesus knew that the soldiers were going to then whip him 39 times with cat of nine tails, a whip with 9 hooked prongs at the end. He knew the soldiers would make a crown out of thorns and put it on his head and as they put it on his head where it would cut into his scalp. Jesus knew that the soldiers would force him to carry a 400 lb wooden cross up a hill. He knew once he arrived on the top of that hill, they would nail his hands and feet to this cross. They would hang him up to die. He knew that even then the soldiers would not be satisfied, they would take a spear and pierce his side.

Jesus was a real person, he was flesh and blood like all of us, and he knew he would feel all the pain and suffering. Jesus knew all of this was going to happen to him. But He willingly gave the ultimate sacrifice, his life, so that we may obtain salvation. Jesus could have stopped it, the Bible says he could have called out and an army of angels would have come to his rescue, but he didn't. He didn't because he knew that by his dying, that was the only way we, as people could be reconciled to God. And he knew that he had to take the whipping because the bible says : "through his stripes we are healed." -Isaiah 53:5

This weekend I will celebrate. Not only with food, laughter or cakes but also with thankfulness and hands lifted up high to our gracious and soveriegn God. Will you be celebrating with me?

{ sleeping beauty }

I need new bedding! Aye, but bedding is soo expensive! I’m torn between colors AND which brand to buy. Prices are way different but why not spend a little bit more since I sleep almost everyday? ;) Feedback is much appreciated!

Credits: Vera Wang Bedding, Dweel Studio

{ Layla Vue }

Hello, I would like you to meet Layla. Layla is chorkie (Chihuahua/yorkie mix). She will be 2 years old on March 22 and absolutely great company. I first met her in February of 2008. I actually met her sister first at a local pho restaurant and found her so adorably cute that I began to consider having a puppy of my own.

It wasn’t until 2 weeks after serious contemplation that I decided to call her breeder and set-up a meeting. I can remember the night clearly, Tracy (my former roommate) and I were leaving Riverside evening church service and we scheduled to meet her. On the drive there we got lost; we weren’t too familiar with the area. I believe added to that was my nerves that were steering me the wrong way. ;) When he brought over the litter there were 3 puppies total; Layla along with her two brothers. One looked identical to her and the other was fairly chubbier and lighter in color. I automatically eliminated the chances of the boys, because I didn’t want to hassle with cleaning after them.

She was sooo tiny! As soon as we started to drive off she started crying. It was clear that she knew she was alone; her brothers would now be complete strangers to her. I impatiently waited to hold her on the hour long drive home. You could clearly smell puppy on her but I wasn’t able to bathe her until the next day as I didn’t have her puppy shampoo. The first night she was completely exhausted so she slept well. On the second day I bathed her and she smelled as fresh as a spring tulip!

She sleeps with me every night and I love it. In the summer she sleeps at the corner of bed and in the winter she lays under the covers right by my side. She is very smart and vocal. She performs the basic tricks on command; sit, shake hand, jump, lie on stomach, wait, walk. When something is wrong, she cries for help. If you ask her what’s wrong she’ll make sure you understand what she needs.

I talk to her a lot, a lot more than I ever thought I would. I share scriptures, my thoughts and views with her. We run and play, I try to take her out as much as I can. Though I am usually very busy throughout the week, I try to my best to make time to be with her and show her affection. She’s really my baby and I extremely love her.

Sometimes when I talk to her, she responds with a wagging tail and a tilted head. Staring at me, I can tell she’s thinking “I have absolutely no idea what she’s saying but I love her anyways”. I wonder sometimes, do I love God the same? Do I trust Him in all that He does in my life? When I am unsure of what He’s doing, do I wait patiently and respond obediently? Do I absolutely love Him and trust Him whether I understand what He says? Most of my answers are yes’s but there are the few that I realize are no’s. It’s hard to realize and admit what you lack, but reflect on your reactions and your answer will be clear.

Let’s strive to love and trust in God more family. I believe that Layla loves and trusts me because I’ve displayed to her exactly that. If an animal such as Layla can interpret my love for her, how much harder can it be for us to understand God’s love for us?

This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. – 1 John 4:9-11

{ learning to walk }

When a giraffe baby (called a calf) is born, it drops to the ground head first, about 6 feet. The fall and landing doesn't hurt the calf, but it does cause the baby to take a big breath (similar to when a doctor spanks a newborn after exiting the birth canal ;) ). "Why 6 feet?" you ask because giraffes give birth while standing. The next thing that happens may surprise you: the mother giraffe kicks her calf. Take in mind, a kick from a mother giraffe is powerful enough to kill a lion or predator; this is one of their defense mechanisms they have to protect them their predators. So picture this; the calf struggles to stand and mama kicks baby again. Mama watches baby as he fights to stand, struggling to balance and pushes himself up on all fours. If she see any signs of struggling or weakness her you can bet she'll give him another kick. This process continues until the baby giraffe is able to stand up on his own. It is when he stands on his own swiftly, she starts to love her child.

The baby stands up enforced by the hurt and pain from the kick. The mother worries for her child since carnivores will aim to harm him if they see him slow and weak. Once the child can stand up, only then it can run to save its life. When I picture giraffes, I see them amble, graceful and slow. But when they are being hunted or pursued, they can run up to 35 mph. You see, once the baby giraffe stands up, he will be more independent, and the speed of a mother and child would be same. The mother has taught the child first lesson to struggle in life.

Family do you see a similar pattern in your life? Do you sometimes feel like you are faced with trails that are never ending? As if even when you’re already down, life seems to just kick you in the butt? Have you ever asked, “God why are you allowing this”? You struggle to stand and it seems as it’s just in time for the world to knock you off your two feet again. Something I’ve learned from this dear little calf, struggle is everywhere in nature. Trails will come and go, whether you are a Christian or not but the hope is that in Christ, you will be comforted, strengthened and promised greater things. God did not say walking with him would be “easy”, but yet that it would be “worth it”. Are you facing something in your life that seems as though nothing good can come from it? Do you struggle to believe that God can use the bad to bring out the good? Let me remind you, God is omnipotent (unlimited power, ruling over all things) and omniscient (unlimited knowledge, aware of all things and understanding).

All trails do not come from God; sometimes they can be a result from our actions, the action of others, or our own desires. (Genesis 50:20 “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.”). But the beauty is that God is sovereign and can certainly turn it for the good in you. (Romans 8:28 “And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”). As the mother giraffe tries to teach her calf, the enemy is among them and will wait for a fall. She shows the calf that he is to be on alert. She already has an expectation that her calf will encounter the predator, so she teaches him to get up quickly so that the enemy may not be able to attack him when his guards are down. It’s just the same for us, God knows the enemy waits and watches for an open door to stumble us, and when he does he will turn on us and accuse us of horrible things. In the bible it tells us exactly the same, “Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.” 1 Peter 5:8. But the awesome thing about God is he has more grace and mercy than we have sins (that’s a lot, I know!). We can come to him humbled and in humility, repent and we are confident in knowing he forgives. He cleans the slate, as if it never happened.

I encourage you that whatever circumstances you are facing, keep your feet rooted in Christ Jesus and He will bring beauty and blessings out of your trails. Dust yourself up, and with God’s hand upon you, ask for strength and continue to serve and glorify Him. He is molding you into being who you are meant to be, building your character. The world may abandon you, but He has never and will never leave your side (Hebrews 13:5 “"Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."). The world has ridiculed and insulted you; He will sustain you and provide the strength to lift you up. The world tells you that you are not enough, lacking of many things, Father tells you that you were perfectly formed by His hands, beautiful, flawless and precious. Do not let the enemy steer you from the truth, do not let their false accusations and discouraging words block out the tender whispers of your King (1 Corinthians 14:33 “For God is not a God of disorder but of peace.”). Family I encourage you that when you grow weak and weary, cling on to Jesus. Do not fall at the feet of the enemy yet kneel at the throne of you King and He will lift you up. May His face shine upon you.

Credits: giraffe kiss , baby giraffe , hands prayer